"Ignorance is like a delicate exotic fruit; touch it and the bloom is gone." Oscar Wilde

Saturday the weather was amazing and so I decided to go to a market... I chose this market where they have lot's of food from other Latin American countries... While walking down one aisle, I saw these very interesting little orange fruits... I did have to get some and find out what they are all about... The only thing the lady at the market could say was they are called lulo so, as soon as I got home I did some research... Lulo fruit...Solanum quitoense... that just tells me they are related to tomatoes, potatoes and aubergines, and that they have this very romantic scientific name translated as Nightshade from Quito... Where do biologists get the names from, really... They are supposed to be scientists, not poets!!!

Looks like a tomato to me... Intriguing...

What else did I find? According to some "this refreshing and healthy fruit has the potential to become the latest trend"... ok, so... healthy... calcium, phosphorus and iron... vitamins B, C and A... ok... assist metabolism, digestion and should improve blood circulation?? And trend... fashionable food... ok... food is not about fashion... but that's just me...

I decided to cut some to see what they were like... and oh, was I in for a suprise!!! They are beautiful little jewels!!! And the smell!!!

Oh!! they do look so pretty.... and the smell is really inebriating...

But the best part, was definitely tasting them... fresh, acidic... reminiscent of pineapples and rhubarb... almost like candy!!! I am hooked!!! It appears in Colombia and Peru they are mostly drunk as juice... But I will need to experiment a little further... Of course, there is the obvious... Cocktails!!! Oh... well... that will have to be next time I get some, because, they are so good that I ate them all without even noticing...

"Sometimes the most urgent thing you can possibly do is take a complete rest" Ashleigh Brilliant

I haven't written in a while... I know, it's not good to stop writing, but I really needed to take time from all the things I do... I haven't sung much and have canceled some lessons, I have been trying to enjoy the nice weather and napping a lot... I really needed this vacation, I feel so much better now... I wonder how one can forget that having fun is good, I know I had forgotten...

I hadn't gone out on a proper date in a while... I did this week... I hadn't tried clothes, or jewelery in months it seems... I also did that this week and got myself a lovely skirt and earrings...

I went to see a film today at lunch time and had popcorn... I have heard music just for the pleasure of it, not because I'm studying and discovered some amazing singers and new versions of songs I love...

Lying under the Magnolia in the garden

I have enjoyed the garden a lot, I even fell asleep there the other day... There have been some rainy afternoons and I have been able to see through the window and daydream... I have to confess I don't like rain much, but I have discovered it's sound to be so soothing...

Violet season!!! How could I have forgotten about these!!!

I haven't cooked... Not once... For real.. I did get this call though... Do I want to go back to teaching pastry? I really find it very funny, because I'm not a pastry chef, but I just love playing with flavours the way any chef does... So, I am considering it...

I feel renewed... I have laughed a lot and got my weight back to normal... I'm smiling again... A true smile, not a feigned one... I have just been me, not the perfect person I'm always expected to be... It has proven to be very liberating...I'm not even thinking about therapy anymore... I do think I will take the rest of this week slow so that I can really start afresh...

My date you ask?... All I'm saying is it was not a guy... There... That reminds me that I haven't written about sexuality a lot lately!!! Will have to very soon I guess...Only not now... Time for me to go watch the stars...

"Stressed spelled backwards is desserts. Coincidence? I think not!"

I have been having lots of conversations about balance since yesterday... Architecture, books, trainers...
I am sort of in denial, so I decided to go for a walk and have coffee and dessert... Carb balance, sugar balance, caffeine balance... Now you are talking...

I only had one of these...

I had the most amazing nougat I've had in ages. That should bring balance to my life, as only half of it was covered in chocolate... And a double espresso, because, well... Numbers, pairs... You know... Balance?

tasted even better than it looks!!!

My friend went for a 100% chocolate cake... That's what it's called... I didn't have any of that...I don't want to be 100% anything...

Strangely I didn't feel like devouring this one...

I don't know if I found balance or not... But I did enjoy a great conversation, good coffee and a sunny afternoon... Even the chef decided to come out of his kitchen for a while and have coffee in the shade.

looks nice and relaxed... right?

"You know what 'd make a good story? Something about a clown who make people happy, but inside he's real sad. Also he has severe diarrhea" Jack Handy

Nothing much to talk about today, but work... and I just don't want to bore you with the details... Should I post a photograph... again? I think that's exactly that I'm going to do... I have this photo where I seem to be the happiest woman on earth...

In fact, the day the photo was taken I cried for hours... Felt totally and utterly crushed... You see, any singer, actress, performer of some kind can tell you this is us... Nothing but fantasy... Dreams... Delusion...

The strangest part is I'm not someone (or is it, was not someone?) to cry easily... But lately... It happens all the time... I am wondering, should I seek professional assistance? Is it that I am so tired? Is it that perhaps that I need happy pills??? Anyway... I do know how to fake happiness... Weird how it always gets me thinking of clowns... "Ridi, Pagliaccio, e ognun appaudirà ! Tramuta in lazzi lo spasmo ed il pianto..." (Laugh, Clown, and everyone will applaud! Change into laughs the spasms of pain...)

moi... looking elated...

"We are indeed much more than what we eat, but what we eat can nevertheless help us to be much more than what we are" Adelle Davis

I love going to the market and there is a lot I could say about it... only this time, I will let the images speak for themselves...